Congratulations!

Well, Jeff and Suzanne are married by now. ^_^ They had a beautiful day for it and everything!

Today was also, as I mentioned, Adam's birthday.

I ran D&D tonight, no combat during the entire thing. They overcame the problem with proving that Aeron (I spell it however I want to) was a bastard, they found his journal, in which he acutally wrote down "bwa ha ha ha" when discussing his plans to corrupt the church. He was a crazy evil bastard. Who escaped, and now they are going to try to him. They also met a strange little girl named Lily that a few of the pc's have agreed to watch over. She's kinda become John's student, he's teaching her how to fight with sticks and track stuff. Superfly's character has managed to get himself captured by evil priests. He walked through the portal before Aeron escaped and changed where it went to, and decided to go into the evil temple. They clubbed him and chained him up somewhere, and he's on his own because no one knows how to get to where he's at. Also, none of them know exaclty where he got to. He didn't tell anyone but the half-orc, and he doesn't remember.

I finished up early, then came home and did some work. I'm done now, and I think that sleep is a very good idea.

Crazy bits of Tuesdays...

So, it's Tuesday. Technically, I guess it's Wednesday, and Adam's birthday, so happy birthday Adam. But really, it's still Tuesday. Today was decent, though I had my normal problems staying awake in British Lit and Poetry. And then the normal problems of wanting to strangle my classmates in aforementioned courses. I really would like to choke stupid people.

I got my absentee ballot in the mail today, go me, I've voted.

Not much else is new, some stress about news writing, started thinking about my class schedule for next semester, have to take grammer at eight am on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. It's going to suck. A lot. But they are finally offering the archeology class, and novel writing, so that is exciting. But overall, the course list for next semester is rather suck.

I've been writing a bit lately, some rather crap poetry (one that rhymes, ugh, I don't know why I did it, it's a form poem. It's also almost in iambic pentameter) and I've been working on two stories. One with magic, the other with aliens. Is many much fun.

Talked to my dad on the phone today, I can drop my car at my house and it will get inspected on Saturday. And I talked to Matt for over an hour, helping him revise his paper on Frankenstein and Wuthering Heights. I think it was really good, I hope that he gets the grade he deserves. Well, I'm off to shower and bed. Woot.

So, I haven't posted in forever...

Well, I went to PSU this weekend with Vita to see Michael Moore. The drive down was interesting, with construction and traffic and getting pulled over by Campus Police before I even left campus. But we got there okay, and went to Vita's friends' room. After everyone got there, we went to see Michael Moore, which was fun, he was definately entertaining.

But after that, the weekend really went to hell. Everyone was really nice. But I just didn't fit in. Everyone else knew each other, had known each other for years and years. I just didn't belong. Then, other factors came into play, and I was even more seperated from everyone else. We went to a party, where we sat on a couch for about half an hour listening to some really bad rap music, then the group split, half going back to the dorm room, the other half going on to another girl's house. I followed Vita, cause he was the closest thing to a friend I had there, even though at that point he hadn't even looked at me for about two hours, and I wasn't sure if he remembered that I existed or not. But I figured going back to the room would be a good idea, since my car keys were there, and I desperately wanted to have them on my person at that moment.

So, back to the room we went. I was at the back of the group, feeling like a third, fifth, and seventh wheel. I was pretty sure that if I just stopped walking, no one would notice. If I had known my way around Penn State, and had had my car keys, I totally would have left. But I couldn't. So I followed.

We got back to the room. After a while, I decided to try to sleep, because sleep would make the time go faster, and I could go home sooner. I didn't sleep well, though, because I was curled up in a ball at the foot of one of the beds, because I felt like my existance was annoying them, and I wanted to be as unobtrusive as possible. My back hurt so bad.

I woke up for good at about 10 am. I was completely overcome by this wave of homesickness. I hadn't been that homesick since Ireland. When I went to brush my teeth and stuff, I took my bag with me, and I decided to call Paul, because I needed to talk to someone. He told me I should just come home, so I told Vita that I wasn't having fun and wanted to leave. It took about 45 minutes, and then we were on the road. We rounded up Superfly, and I drove back while they slept.

Then, yesterday my internet went off for no apparent reason. We played Buffy, and that was, as always, fun.

And there's a secret passage... and a portal....

I ran D&D tonight. The plot I had ready took till about 10:00, so I just came up with more, and it kept us there till 1:30. It's convoluted. Everything started with my pc's getting their first mission from the hero school. They went off, and after they were halfway there, a cleric hailed them and asked for aid. They went inside, where they were ambushed by three rangers, three fighters, and the cleric. They defeated them, then went downstairs to face another cleric. He escaped by melding with the rock that was in the middle of the chamber that they were in. After he was gone, they got to examine the sacrificial victim by what appeared to be a doorway that led to the rock wall of the cave. It was covered by strange hieroglyphs, a few of them matching the amulets that the clerics wore. Josh, in his brilliance, decided to put the amulet on, and it burnt him, and now he has a scar of the sigil of a dark god.

That was my plot. It was really rather sad. So, we kept going. They arrived at their destination, Marianville, where the Lady Aemilia, daughter of the king, had sent for their aid in uncovering the evil she sensed behind Gunter, her soon-to-be fiance. Vita's character barged into court and announced his presence, which made things awkward for the Lady, and he ended up reducing her to tears after she managed to get him alone to talk.

As they looked into it, which they didn't seem to keen on doing, they eventually found a priestess at the local temple who had found a secret passage that led to another doorway similiar to the one they found on their way to Marianville, only instead of rock, there was a shimery portal there. So they went through it. They had a bit of a tussel with the priests on the other side, since John and Josh were loud, then John refused to leave, so the priests kicked him out, leaving him very far, geographically, from the rest of the party. Vita managed to drag him back down into the chamber with the portal, and that is pretty much were we wrapped up. There was a lot of internal struggle between party members, and lots of other stuff happened before they found the portal, but I'm tired and I need to get to bed and writing it all down would take away all of my sleepy time. So off to bed I go.

White water rafting and the like

So, this weekend was super fabulous. The lowpoints were the vanrides, because our van was mad uncomfortable, but other than that, the weekend was great. Camping out was fun, we stuffed 7 people (Savannah, Kimberly, Adam, Vita, Artie, Mike, and me) into our tent, so it was nice and warm. Yay for body heat!

Rafting was awesome, definately my best trip yet, and we were the only raft that didn't flip. And Adam was our only swimmer. Our raft consisted of Jason, Artie, Jeremy, Savannah, Vita, Kimberly, Adam, and me. We were an awesome group. It was a little cold all day, very cold in the morning, but the sun was out and it was a really pretty day.

I haven't posted for a few days, but the only other thing that has happened really was the adventure of searching for a bear. Which was just silly. We didn't find one. For which I was grateful, since we were tramping around in the woods, and though I wasn't the only one who wasn't reaaaly drunk, I was the only one who hadn't been drinking.

Today, I'm crazy sore, my hands and wrists especially, though my back and neck are up there in the "ouch" list as well. But other than that, all is well. I've even written a page in one of my stories this morning! Woot! Usefullness! I think I'll get back to that now.

Turning tides and falling stars

Yesterday was a kind of shit day. I woke up just in time to take the quickest shower ever and run to Baily's Beads. Then I spent most of the day doing pretty much nothing except my laundry, which cost $5. Then work, which wasn't bad, Angel was on tv, so that was fun. Then I came home, showered, and started putting my laundry away.

After that, it was time to run D&D. The experience was rather frustrating. Running for 7 people is just crazy. No one listened to anything I said, and it just sucked. But hopefully next week will be better. If I had posted last night, I would have ranted a lot more, but it's just not in me right now.

I skipped British Literature today, and poetry. I feel terribly empty and washed out and overall just kinda shitty. I need a hug. But that might just be dread about going to news writing. I hate it so much, but I have to go.

No diving! No running!

So, I went home yesterday. My grandparents took me and Matt out to lunch, then I went to my appointment, then I went home and had dinner with Matt and Dad. I was supposed to go see Betsy, but she was too busy.

When I got back to campus, I ran D&D, then played some Trivial Pursuit. It was a good time. Then, of course, I woke up today at 7:30 and went to class. They workshopped my story in fiction, then I went to the reading, which was pretty good. Then I worked on my feature writing portfolio, then I had to go to news writing. I hate news writing. I got an 88% on my last test, though. Which wasn't bad. I didn't screw up nearly as bad as I thought I would. Then dinner, then here, where I got to sit on the deck for an hour and a half, and I had to pee the entire time. It fucking sucked. But there's no one in the pool now, so that's all good.

Savannah time is fun!

Saw Jay off this morning, he had to head back to Clarion to get some work done. Then, Savannah and I went to Erie! I bought a couple of shirts, a sweater, and some chocolate massage lotion. We had steak for dinner, and an orange freeze for dessert, and listened to a lot of Evanescence. Overall, the day just kicked lots of ass.

We got back in time for Buffy, which was as delightful as always. I actually earned drama points for saying witty things. Go me! Also, my character hooked up with a guy in the club, earning her the honor of being the first one to get any ass in the game.

Heading to Grove City tomorrow, should get to see Matt and Ian and my grandparents and Betsy. But I won't get to see my parents, which sucks. But I have to be back to game and get some homework done.

Enter Helena

So, today wasn't bad. Went caving with Jay, Elisha, Savannah, and Vita. I suck at caving, I've not got the upper body strengh and manuverability (id est I'm just too big). When we were down through this one little bit, I'd just dropped to the bottom, and I looked up and realized that I was not going to be able to get back up. I had to go sideways, because my hips were to wide to face the ledge, and there were no real foot or handholds that I could reach. So, after a bit of swearing and crying, they got a rope around me and another one of the guys, Artie, came and let me stand on his shoulders to get out. It was really, really scary. I was completely dependent on other people to get me out of there, and I do not like being helpless like that. It was just horrible, stuck there, unable to move, too short to reach the handholds and too tall to be able to scrunch up enough to wedge my body so I could inch up. All I could do is keep from panicking and keep telling myself to breathe.

After that, I just kinda sat around with Savannah, Jay, and Vita while Elisha and Artie and a couple of other people explored. Wasn't the most exciting time ever. But it wasn't bad. It was nice outside, and the trees were pretty.

Then we had lunch, then we came back here, everyone showered, then Jay, Elisha and I went to the thrift store, where I bought Trivial Pursuit for $1.99, the same edition that I have at home, I think. It's pure delight. I love it soo much. Then we went out for dinner, then came back here and played my wonderful new, very old game. The game is still in progress, I'm not sure if it will be picked back up or not. Right now, Jay and I each have four pies, and Paul and Elisha are on a team with two.

Then, we played Mage. Again, things not going so well for Serena, though Paul and Suzanne's characters did make it back. But after losing them, she's really not prepared to depend on them again. She's busy trying to take care of Kevin, the mage who owned the coffee shop that she was working at. She found him all beat up outside of the coffee shop, so she took him to the hospital. However, with more crap continuing to go down, Kevin was tortured, and his avatar was killed, so he can never do any magic again ever. Of course, Serena doesn't know that. Then, she's finally interacting a little with Jeff's character, because he was in Kevin's house, passed out drunk and full of bullet holes, and she is sort of house sitting. So, she drug him to the hospital. She's spending lots of time there lately. She spent most of the rest of her time perusing Kevin's magicy library.

Jay is sleeping, and I should probably get to bed. I am not sure if I'm being a very good hostess... I hope he's having fun. *sigh* I'm beginning to wonder if you lose the ability to just hang out with old friends and talk and be silly, if eventually you go through some horrid maturation process where the only time you can spent with your friends is over lunch or coffee or some other appointment type arranged thing. I hope not. That would be sad.

How yesterday sucked...

I woke up at 7:30 yesterday, after getting to bed around 3:00 because I had a bunch of homework to finish up after I ended Changeling and ran the preview for D&D. I went to all of my classes, and they were for the most part crap. Poetry was completely pointless, I would have learned more just sitting and staring at a wall for an hour and fifteen minutes. The only real high point was going out for ice cream with Elisha and Jillian. And, Jillian and I got our experience reports turned in finally, so that is nice and finished.

But by the time 9:00 rolled around, I felt like absolute crap. I just wanted to curl up in a little ball and have someone rub or tickle my back till I fell asleep. But I went over to game anyway. Then Adam was late, and it was 9:30, and I was just sitting there being pointless, no one was even talkling to me, so finally Paul suggested I just go home, and so I did.

I got back here, called Jay to make sure he was still coming today, then I went to bed. I tossed and turned and was half awake, half having terrible nightmares until 2:00, when I finally got up to take some pain killers for a headache that had woken me up completely. Elisha and Savannah were getting back from their activities, so Savannah gave me her rice bag thing to put on my neck, which was so tense I could barely move it, and Elisha rubbed my back till I fell asleep. She's the best person in the whole world.

I still didn't sleep through the whole night, I kept waking up, but I didn't get out of bed till almost eleven. I feel mostly better, though my back and neck are still really tight, and I feel like another headache could strike at any moment, and I still have a cold. But at least it's Friday.

"We're like geek lasers. We're glasers!"

Today fucking rocked. It was just good. I got up, went to Baily's Beads, came back here, cleaned my room a bit, went to the bank, Zippo, and Wal-Mart, then came back, finished cleaning my room, went to dinner, went to work, where I got some crocheting and some homework done, then back here, then to play piano with Savannah while she sang.

Then Changeling. Finished it tonight, everyone but Savannah and Vita died, they escaped. Paul went out in a blaze of glory, Adam took about ten shots before he went down. During the battle with the hunters, Savannah stabbed Vita, which was amusing.

Then, I ran a preview for the D&D campaign that I'm starting next week. It went pretty damn well. I just pulled some monsters out of the monster manuel, and there was even some actual role-playing. And all good parties are fun! Paul, Vita, Josh, and Adam managed to take down a CR 6 demon. A Bagua, with damage reduction 10/cold iron or good. The only one who could hurt it was Josh with his mindblade. (Yeah, I have psyionics in my game. And I start them with an automatic 18, they reroll anything under 10, and we're using action points and percentile attack bonuses and saves. I'm the nicest DM ever.)

Well, I've got homework and no time for sleep, so I'll wrap this up and get started. Today was just so fun! And my room is clean! Woot!

Damn, I'm weird.

Betsy: you're going to get it *chases*
me: *runs* *sets trap* *waits* *springs* !!
Betsy:AHH!!
me: Hehehe.
Betsy: damn you and your cunningness
me: Now you are dangling from your ankles *poke*
Betsy: eeeek
me: And now you're swaying back and forth!
Betsy: *giggles* *gets a headache* ouch
me: *lets you down* *but you're tied up*
Betsy: uh oh
me: Yessssss. At the mercy of... DUN DUN DUUUUN... ME!
Betsy: *whimpers*
me: *evilness*
Betsy: and what is you are going to do with me?
me: And what is you are going to do with me??? Make fun of that sentence, first off.
Betsy: lol shuddup
me: Psh. It is only the beginning.
Betsy: :-P
me: *plot and plan*
Betsy: *worried look*
me: heh heh heh. First, I shall tickle you! With a fish! *summons magic fish*
Betsy: lol nOooooo not the magic tickle fish!
me: Yes! The magic tickle fish!
Betsy: noooooo

Rainy days and Mondays

Last night's Buffy session went pretty well. My character got knocked unconsious twice. It was solid good fun. Then I went and spent the night at Jeff and Suzanne's house, Suzanne got the backrub I owed her.

Today has been pretty uneventful. I gave a talk/lecture thing on Ireland at noon, the attendence was about what I expected (ie only people that I knew and had pretty much forced to attend), but Savannah assures me that I did really well.

I actually got quite a bit of homework done today. Go me. I'll probably get back to such things soon.

Poor Serena...

So much shit came down on my poor mage character tonight. First, as a little background, she ran away from home with her music tutor/lover, and they were on Boston trying to find a place to stay. They get attacked and her lover gets shot in the head. She manages to escape with the aid of Susanne's character, Nicole, and moves in with her and works on learning about magic and how to defend herself. She also makes friends with Adam's character Uriel, who is paralyzed, blind, and deaf and senses the world through his magic. Paul's character John is around as well, but not really a bond.

Then, Serena gets a job in the coffee shop run by another mage, and after her first day, which went rather well, one of the patrons keels over and her mother's voice comes out of his head, pleading for help. So, our group packs up and heads across Mass. to rescue her. They find a house full of the same type of guys who shot Serena's lover in the head, and storm it. Serena is knocked out in the inital fight, but this guy named Rosencrantz comes along and gets her and Nicole out of there. But John was captured, so they go back for him. They manage to get in with Rosencrantz's help, though Uriel can't get in because of a magic ward, Serena shoots one in the head, the others are dealt with, then she and Nicole go downstairs. They find John vanished through a door into the Umbra, and Serena's mother freshly dead. So Nicole goes through the door, ordering Serena not to follow. So she goes outside to talk to Uriel, who vanishes the second he stops whirling around the ward. She goes to Rosencrantz and cries on him for a little bit, then explains where John and Nicole went. Rosencrantz tells her that they are more than likely dead, and she should go home. So, she leaves them a note and gets into the van to head back to Boston. She's all alone. Her lover and mother are both dead, her father is a prick who disowned her, and her friends are all missing, presumed dead. And there was nothing she could do about any of it. It sucks to be her.

In other news, I drove a lot today. Went to Clarion to visit Jay, then home to see my mom and dad, then to Meadville to take Matt out for tea and pie. Elisha went with me, and we had a good day, saw the ALF parade in Clarion, learned new ways to get places, visited. Was a good day.

And my point is..?

So, I feel pretty useless at life at the moment. Like if I suddenly did actually fade completely out of existance, nothing at all would be affected in the slightest bit. I don't really fill any necessary roles. Like, if my friends' lives were soap operas, I would be the extra friend who eventually gets killed in some strange twist that no one saw coming.

Add to that the fact that I'm tired all of the time lately, along with the fact that I keep having random pains in odd places that I can't explain, and I keep getting all depressed and moody for no reason, and I'm just generally unpleasant. I'm sorry to everyone who is putting up with me, and I'm grateful that you still do. I'm working on getting over this stupid angst/emotional/retarded phase, so hopefully things will get better.

Didn't do much today, played Vampire and even my character was generally useless. But tomorrow I'm going on a nice adventure with Elisha to hopefully see Betsy, Jay, and my family. It should be a good time. Then back in time for Mage, which is exciting. ^_^

Sleepy

I am very tired, I need to get myself to bed. Not too much happened today, talked to Jay for a while, talked to my mother, still don't know when Dr's apt is on Saturday, but will hopefully find out tomorrow. I think it's at some silly hour of the morning and I'm going to have to get up at like five am. But hopefully I will get to see Betsy and my family, and I might even be able to swing by Clarion to see Jay. It's autumn leaf festival there or something, and their mascot is a leaf with an eyepatch, and I sooo need one of those for my bedroom. Arg.

I killed the plot in D20 modern tonight! Go me! We also killed lots and lots of bad guys. It was many much good fun for everyone.

Sleep now. Night world.